As the hands of time moved from my childhood into my young teen years, the road my mother was traveling opened wide and dark into the sea of a massive hidden volcano deep in the sea of guilt, despair, anger, loneliness, and desperation. She had followed God for five years after the death of my father. She and I were going to church and she would read God’s Word to me. The Lord’s Heartbeat was clear during those years.
Proverbs 26: 24-26 – A malicious man disguises himself with his lips, but in his heart he harbors deceit. Though his speech is charming, do not believe him, for seven abominations fill his heart. His malice may be concealed by deception, but his wickedness will be exposed in the assembly.
My very first crush was in elementary school. He was it. I thought he was the most divine human being on this earth. But what did I know in elementary since he did not even know my name much less that I was even on this planet.
My first true love came when I was nine. I accepted Christ as my personal Savior. During this time, several tragic events happened in my life.
Through these events, I began to search what is “Love” and who is “Love”. At this time, church had become a part of my mother’s and my life as we searched for the Lord’s heartbeat.