From the time I was twelve until I graduated from high school, I lived in an environment of verbal and emotional abuse. During that time, I learned to stay within the safety of the four walls inside my bedroom. As long as my music could not be heard or my one friend who could come to my house was quiet, I was shielded from the abuse.
As the nails of adversity were continually being pounded into my heart, I taught myself how to escape through my dreams and I developed an increasing desire for chocolate. God had been pushed to the back for a season because Mother and I no longer went to church nor did she and I read God’s Word together anymore.
God’s Word still applies to our lives even today. His Word reveals who we are and what we are not. There is nothing left out of God’s Word. We see the good, bad and the ugly.
Hebrews 4:12-13 – For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Can God heal a wound so deep that it cuts into the core of your being?
As we traveled down into the Church of Compromise, we could see along the entrance there were strong lamp stands of Perseverance and eloquent columns of Hard Work all which represented the Lord’s heartbeat.
However, on the inside the shepherd had tolerated lies and deception for a long time and he had become part of the major problem as well. He was no longer protecting the sheep from the ravaging wolves but had been deceived himself. He was making excuses for the repetitive sins that were happening and wanted to close a blind eye to the truth. He no longer held firmly to the trustworthy doctrine and refuted those who opposed it. He was unable to hear the Lord’s heartbeat because of the repetitive sins that he was tolerating.