In Psalm 68:5, God tells us that He is a Father to the fatherless.
On this day sixty years ago, you, my husband of forty years, began a journey of unforeseen winds of adversities. These winds of adversities prepared you for the springs and streams you have had to cross and the valleys and mountains you have had to climb.
From the time I was twelve until I graduated from high school, I lived in an environment of verbal and emotional abuse. During that time, I learned to stay within the safety of the four walls inside my bedroom. As long as my music could not be heard or my one friend who could come to my house was quiet, I was shielded from the abuse.
As the nails of adversity were continually being pounded into my heart, I taught myself how to escape through my dreams and I developed an increasing desire for chocolate. God had been pushed to the back for a season because Mother and I no longer went to church nor did she and I read God’s Word together anymore.
Ecclesiastes 1:9 – What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.
Tomorrow is my earthly father’s birthday. It is difficult for me to view him at the age of eighty nine since he left this earth at the age of thirty seven. I have limited memories of him since I was just seven when he died.
May brings a time of many memories as well as much sorrow for us. Dad went home to be with the Lord, May 10, 1966. Bobby’s caring grandmother also went home to be with the Lord, May 1981.Mother’s Day is observed on or near one or both of these days, also my mother is no longer with us but with the Lord.
The legacy that each has passed down is what helps take the memories and sorrows and wraps them all together. The tears that fall down our faces are bitter and sweet.
Walking the Christian life is not for cowards. Each time my mother battled her cancer, God provided strength to endure and challenging opportunities to grow in my walk with Him.
The lesson about my mother’s cancer showed me that what we see on the surface is not what is on the inside. Just as the cancer inside my mother’s body was not visible, what is in someone’s heart is not visible. In the same way, what we see in a photo is not always showing the whole truth but what appears to be.
Hebrews 4: 12-13, For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
God continually shows me that what is in the dark will come to the light sooner or later, whether it is my own actions and attitudes or others actions and attitudes. God is a God of love, compassion, mercy, and justice. He will not allow sin to continue in any of His children’s hearts.
During the summer, it is magical to watch a storm coming from the horizon. In the distance, you can see the lightning dancing across the sky making the sky light up as if there were thousands of lights shining all over.
However, as the storm comes closer and closer there is nothing exciting about it anymore. The lightning is striking on the ground all around and the trees are popping, cracking and tumbling down. The winds have become hurricane force winds tearing and whirling everything that dares get in the way or stop it. After the storm has passed by, the destruction and devastation caused by the storm will take month’s maybe years to rebuild.
Bobby and I have been in a bottomless mournful place since January 2013. We have struggled, wrestled, cried, yelled, prayed, and fasted to move heaven and earth for answers from God to understand why He has allowed three different strong raging violent storms to come upon us all at the same time.
In readingDr. Stanley’s Devotion for January 16, 2017, Testing Builds Endurance, Dr. Stanley asked this question, “ Why Would A Loving Heavenly Father allow His children to go through terrible trials and experience sorrow?” When I read this question, it flooded my soul of a past bitter sweet trial that examined my faith and reminded me that God is trustworthy to see me through all my raging storms whether I caused them or not.
What could Jezebel, a human being God created, have in common with the fictional character, Cinderella that was created by the wonderful imagination of Walt Disney another human being God created?
Why watch shows on T.V. like Desperate Housewives, Criminal Minds, The Walking Dead, day time soap operas, The Big Bang Theory, Madam Secretary, Modern Family, Supernatural, The Good Wife and Empire when you can find all the crime, sex, murder, in the Bible.