Category Archives: Emotions

Seasons, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

The Seasons of My Heart

From the time I was twelve until I graduated from high school, I lived in an environment of verbal and emotional abuse. During that time, I learned to stay within the safety of the four walls inside my bedroom. As long as my music could not be heard or my one friend who could come to my house was quiet, I was shielded from the abuse.

As the nails of adversity were continually being pounded into my heart, I taught myself how to escape through my dreams and I developed an increasing desire for chocolate. God had been pushed to the back for a season because Mother and I no longer went to church nor did she and I read God’s Word together anymore.

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Spurning The Lord’s Heartbeat

This Really Is Not Sinning

Genesis 3:1Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, “You must not eat from any tree in the garden?”

Satan is the master at making sin come across as pleasing, beautiful, and brings freedom to fulfill the inner desires of our hearts which say that we are entitled to go after whatever we see and take from others what they have as well. He implies that God is strict, stingy, and selfish and wants to keep us from our freedom to pursue our hearts desires.

As the winds and rain of adversity continue to beat down hard on Bobby and me, we are on the mountain road of a seemingly endless war of anxiety and anger. We constantly are seeking, asking, and knocking at God’s Heavenly door for answers to our circumstances that are running down a slippery muddy mountain road heading straight for the cliff. We keep asking where are the brakes and how do we stop this moving disaster?

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Contradiction, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

The Bridge From One Scripture To Another Scripture

As the inner battles continue, I am in a constant quest for a discerning heart to walk by faith and not by sight.

Proverbs 2:6, 10-11For the Lord gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul. Discretion will protect you, and understanding will guard you.

Recently, God has put Bobby and me, for the third time, back in the path of a dear loved one. This winding, twisting, turning path we have been on since January 2013 has had more detours, roadblocks and just plain out confusion for us than walking blindfolded within the deep dark forest in the middle of the night with total darkness all around.

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Pain, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

Unrelenting Pain

Psalm 48:14For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.

As Bobby and I continue to search and ask why God has brought the unrelenting pain of isolation and separation into ours lives, we turn again and again to the only guidance and guide we can rely on for complete truthfulness. God’s Holy Word is our map for our guidance, and the Holy Spirit is our constant companion and guide.

With the guidance of the Holy Spirit, God has brought us to the Book of Job before, but recently, God has directed us back again to this surprising book of suffering, Satan’s attacks, God’s goodness, and our own pride or others and trusting in God.

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Rebirth, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

A Birthday Prayer

My Daughter-in-Law

As I am preparing this post for my Blog, Hurricane Irma is creating a strong destructive path through our country, and she will leave her mark in history that cannot and will not be forgotten. The number of lives, property and possessions that are destroyed cannot be measured with money, words, or emotions.

Just as Irma will and has caused devastation beyond our human ability to fully understand, the Hurricane Irma’s in our personal lives can and do have lasting scars as well.

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Responsibility, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

A Lesson in Standing Alone

Joshua 24:15But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.

Joshua took his stand for God many years earlier. In Numbers 13, when is was time for the Israelites to go into the land God had promised them, all but Caleb and Joshua chose to retreat and disobey God.

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Remain, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

Waiting on the Lord’s Answer

Isaiah 48-18If only you had paid attention to my commands, your peace would have been like a river, your righteousness like the waves of the sea.

Monday, August 7, Bobby and I enjoyed a mostly calm rafting trip down the Nantahala River. However, many years back, we traveled down the Ocoee River with our sons and this trip was anything but calming. We could have been afraid because the river was strong and wild, but we had a guide that was extremely knowledgeable of the twists, turns and huge rocks that could have caused us harm.

Nantahala River

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Emotions, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

Do Not Let Your Emotions Deceive or Control

In Genesis 27, we read in God’s Word an illustration of what will happen when we allow our emotions to deceive and control us. God does not hide anything from us. He reveals the good as well as the evil.

When Rebekah learned that Isaac was preparing to bless Esau, she quickly devised a plan to trick him into blessing Jacob instead. She took matters into her own hands. For her, the end justified the means.

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Persistence, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

Ask, Seek, Knock

Our pilgrimage on this earth can resemble many different forms. We can relate to our journey as being in a boat on the calm waters but suddenly dark hovering clouds producing lighting, thunder, and hurricane winds come out of nowhere seeking to capsize our boat with us in it.

Another form of our traveling this pilgrimage of life may mirror taking a road trip. When finances were and are limited, Bobby and I enjoy just hitting the open road to see where the bends, twists, and turns will take us. Our natural GPS system usually takes us to the North Georgia Mountains or the Great Smokey Mountains.

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Darkness, Seeking The Lord’s Heartbeat

Darkness Cannot Exist in the LIGHT

John 1:5The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.

The darkness of evil never has and never will overcome or extinguish God’s Light. My mind tells me this every day. However, this extremely long dark tunnel Bobby and I have been in since January 2013 is trying to convince me otherwise.

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